Winter wonderland

At last it’s winter in Tallinn. It’s been years since the previous time we had Real Snow. Traffic is jammed, planes are delayed, roads are deadly slippery and newspapers suggest that everyone would simply stay home. I picked a good time to visit home again.

Choices, choices

Instead of cables and buttons on a lighting board, a chisel and a sewing machine have become my main tools of work. In a way it’s a good thing to know more things about the world, but it’s a fact that to be REALLY good at something, you need to be an obsessed nolifer to focus on your passion.

I’m not an excellent light designer (yet?). I’m a lousy stage designer (an recent upgrade from not being a stage designer). Will I ever be a really good something? Maybe a really good composition of average skills makes an excellent result when combined?

It’s not possible to do everything very well. I cannot be an úbermensch. I only have this one life and that’s it. And there are so many options.

• You can focus on your career and change the world (in what, is a worse question).

• You can raise a great family and change the world (I have not a single kid despite my old age yet).

• You can drink yourself to death while having fun and change the world (if you bare to enjoy shitty booze, ugh).

• You can reach inner peace and change the way you see the world (but there’s so much magic you’d miss while meditating).

• And you can simply be good to the changing world around you and see what comes around.

I want it all, bloody hell, and I only have this one lifetime to do it. Here’s a relevant thisisindexed.