Choices, choices

Instead of cables and buttons on a lighting board, a chisel and a sewing machine have become my main tools of work. In a way it’s a good thing to know more things about the world, but it’s a fact that to be REALLY good at something, you need to be an obsessed nolifer to focus on your passion.

I’m not an excellent light designer (yet?). I’m a lousy stage designer (an recent upgrade from not being a stage designer). Will I ever be a really good something? Maybe a really good composition of average skills makes an excellent result when combined?

It’s not possible to do everything very well. I cannot be an úbermensch. I only have this one life and that’s it. And there are so many options.

• You can focus on your career and change the world (in what, is a worse question).

• You can raise a great family and change the world (I have not a single kid despite my old age yet).

• You can drink yourself to death while having fun and change the world (if you bare to enjoy shitty booze, ugh).

• You can reach inner peace and change the way you see the world (but there’s so much magic you’d miss while meditating).

• And you can simply be good to the changing world around you and see what comes around.

I want it all, bloody hell, and I only have this one lifetime to do it. Here’s a relevant thisisindexed.